And it did!!!

At the crack of dawn I m awake, eyes still wanting to sleep

I my mind their is a strange relief

It’s like by saying the final good bye; you have snapped what was the last straw of doubt holding us together

It was never meant to be.... you told me in my weak moments and I held the same ground when you trembled...

What has to last it does..... This had to snap and it did....

The promises were not fake, the love not deceptive

Though a moment in life, it lasted a lifetime...

I saw the beauty and I lived in it...

As the first beam of light touches my face I make a new promise...

Promise this time to be by you...

Promise that I hold your friendship true....

Promise that we will last.......

Cause this last straw that holds us now is hope...

Hope that friendship will blossom again,

That you and me will last this time...

Reach Me

I stare blankly into the darkness...

Now a days it makes more sense than the bright shining sun...

I look at the blank starless sky and wonder can anything make more sense...

Black, vast, limitless are my thoughts....

Forever is the blandness around me...

I am waiting for that dot of light in the far reaching darkness....

I am waiting for that light to reach me...

In whose warmth I seek closure lost long back...

At whose touch this heart will feel again....

I am waiting for that moment when that beam of hope will touch me...

The value

The value of my tears,

Tears that flow out at your anger, tears at the fear of hurting you

Tears at your disappoints, for disappointing you

Tears at your success and failures

Tears when you lost, tears that I won without you,

Tears that I gave you a reason to complain,

Tears at your anguish, tears that it’s you after all

Tears that I fail to explain every time....

Tears lest you complain.....tears that fear you,

The fear of losing you...

Tears because you are special

Tears that kept flowing....

These are tears you cannot pay me for,

Tears that are value less and valued by few....

Don’t test them so much that these eyes that wet at your cite

Just become dry.

To a Friend.....

At the last dawn I sigh

With the only noise that I can make

Enter my world and see how it’s to be muted when awake

Heart always wanted to reach you,

Words held me back,

It’s a strange friendship we share...

More intense, cruel, amiable...

In the last dawn I ask you...

Why to forget and forgive...

Questions were always wrong...

Answers always short...

I’ll hold you like a treasure.....

Put out my hand whenever I can...

I rested on your shoulder...

I still crave for that comfort...

A mother’s touch, sister’s hand...

A friend’s hope...

Let my last pass this way, let me wait a little longer...

As my heart wants to reach you

As words hold me back...

Let me, my friend

Rest this one last time.....

A REASON FOR BEAUTY

Moments like those are rare; a beginning, a numbing of the pain, the fulfilment of the dream all lived in such a short time.

Moments like those one waits for years for without moving and suddenly act upon an unknown strength to grasp. 

Even if a gesture was simple, it could mean the world. The most beautiful phrases of love are uttered in silence of a smile.

Moments like those give us strength to fight, in the hope that it won’t be lost and that others just as wonderful will be live in the future.

Moments like those give life untraceable meaning; make the sunset worth watching because beauty can be seen only when beauty can be lived.

A moment like that is what makes the stars shine at night and sun rise in morning. Why would anyone want to go on if it weren’t for moments like those?

True pleasure can only be found in sacrifice and peace comes only after a war is fought for right reasons. A lifetime can be lived in search of such movement, a lifetime of pain and loss but if the movement is found it will have been worth it.

Movements like those give reasons to tears, laughter, beginnings, endings, the rain, a flower, a bird and anything and everything else.

05/04/2005